Still Awake

I am still awake. I've been up for 24 hours, and don't plan on sleeping much tonight, either. To be honest, I can't get that... THING out of my head. That elusive shape in the shadows, the figure I can feel walking -right behind me- but when I turn to look, it isn't there.

I made a mistake. I bought House of Leaves and read the whole damn thing from beginning to end. Then I read only the journal entries. Now I'm reading the book part of it. I know it's just a book, but it's beginning to feel a whole freaking lot like my own life, particularly the uncertainty of it. The constant wondering: "Am I alright? Or am I going insane?"

I know I'm not going insane, Alice saw that thing too. Truth be told, I'm sorry I ever dragged her out to the woods with me. Now -she's- getting nightmares, headaches, all the crap I've been dealing with the last month or two. Misery loves company? Psh. Not when it's your best friend.

Someone tap

ed this:
















To my door last night. Hell if I know what it means. For all I know I'm at the whims of some psychotic serial killer, and this is his calling card. But no, that doesn't explain what happened in Massachusetts.

I've got another video I'm going to upload today, after I get some errands done.

~Clover

VIDEO:

Who the Hell Was Just in my Apartment??

Riddle me this, Batman. A minute ago I just heard my apartment door open and close. Thinking it was my roommate getting back from class, I went out to say hi. No one was there. Then I heard a key in the lock, and whoever just walked out locked the door.

Naturally I ran over and checked the peep-hole. No one. Ran out to the hallway. No one.

This is going WAY too far. Whoever is messing with me has managed to get a key to my apartment, which is frankly impossible, because our keys are made special, for extra security in the city. You can't get them done at a Home Depot or even most locksmiths. I know this, because when we moved in they only gave us two keys, and we got about 5 useless ones made before we went to the building manager and literally forced them to give us one more. I don't know WHY they're so useless.

And see, that's the other thing- management takes FOREVER to get back to us on any work orders, so I can't easily get the locks changed.

SO yeah, whoever's doing this can now get into my apartment. Lovely. That's just so great. And with the stressful roommate situation, I am just so ready to move into the dorms again, as sucky as they are.

This is breeding some serious paranoia on my part. I swear to God I saw that guy from the forest again, only behind me walking down the street last night. I RAN back to my apartment and didn't bother to check. I probably freaked out some poor guy just trying to get home.

So yeah, classes are starting to go terribly, I can't sleep so my projects are getting sloppier- if I even have the motivation to do them. The lack of sleep is starting to give me... not hallucinations, but weird visual side effects. Oh, and now my computer has started beeping at me. And I can't figure out why.

Sigh. Great. Just great.